Parting is such sweet sorrow...

I am no longer a Freshman. I'm a mother fucking Sophomore now.
:D


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I really hate songs that make me miss those people who were in my life but left cause I fucked up.
It bothers me because I never knew how much I would miss those people once they left.
I screwed up a lot but there are three people who I will forever miss no matter how screwed up it sounds.
Tyler, Cade & Aaron.
All of them meant the world to me but I went ahead and acted without thinking.
And now, I get reminded every time I hear or say something that reminds me of them.
I miss Aaron's easygoingness.
I miss Cades kisses.
I miss Tyler's love. 

And yeah, I know he never really loved me but I still miss it.
I miss a lot but I guess I should be lucky I still have my memories of when things were good when I was with them.
Yes, I've been with lots of people and I will continue to be with people.
But those 3 and the memories I have of them have stayed with me so far so I'm hoping I can have those memories even when I'm an old lady.

I know I said I lost my faith in love but I suppose I will always have it. But it just seems like right now, I just need a break from it. Although I so desperately want it.
Love is so fucking fucked up. But sometimes, it's so worth it.

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Tomorrow is my 15th birthday.
It's midnight right now so it's Fathers day.
I fucking hate how my birthday is either the day before or after or on Fathers Day.
Cause I always feel guilty cause I'm getting all the attention when it should be my dad's day.
And I feel guilty when I'm having friends over for my birthday and they have to come on Fathers Day. Makes me feel guilty because then I'm taking them away from their dad's.
I kinda of wish I was born a day later or earlier. That way Fathers Day wouldn't get in the way.
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This month is National Adopt A Cat Month.
So go adopt a baby kitty from the animal shelter :)

Peace
-A