Oujia boards.

I have some great fucking news.
I am not pregnant. The test showed up positive and I just got my period today. So I am in a fantastic mood! Besides the fact I'm bored out of my mother fucking mind.
So today in town I was with Jess, Lauren, Ashli & Megan.
Here's some background information on the story; There's this 19 year old kid whose stalking Ashli. He graduated this year and he is like, a major creeper. Like, wanting to fuck little girls creeper. Well, after Lauren left, the rest of us were hanging out at the local grocery store when Jess and I get an identical text saying, "I saw you... Again!" I'm thinking, "Who the hell is this??"
Ashli, however, has caught on that it is Colton, the creeper, and has booked it inside the store. She ran to the bathrooms with Jess. Megan and I went outside to look for him and tell them when it was safe to come out. We couldn't fucking find him. But when Jess and Ash walked out, they saw him right away. And we all ran to the little marina in our town. As Ash was saying how scared she was of him, I just simply said, "Give me his number. I am ending this. Now. He's starting to piss me off." So Jessica gave me his number and here is the conversation I had with him;
Me: Hello? Is this Colton?
Colton: Yes..?
Me: Okay. Listen to me. Leave Ashli the fuck alone, you got that? Bye."


And I hung up. He was starting to irritate me and he was really starting to scare one of my best friends. That is not okay. Ashli is fucking scared of him and I don't think it's right for her to be scared in her own fucking town. He needed to back the fuck off. So, Ashli. If he ever, and I mean ever, bothers you again, I will kick his scrawny ass. You have my word.
Now, I may seem a little.. Eccentric to you but I'm just loyal and, honestly, a bit protective of my friends.  I hate to see them scared. I hate seeing them hurt. I hate seeing someone harass them. And if I can help, you better believe I fucking will.

Anyways, we did the Oujia board again and shit went down. Lauren was talking cause it was her blood on the board. She asked if it was related to her. It said no. I asked if it was related to anyone else in the room. It said 'No' to Ashli and 'yes' to me. When I asked if it was related to Jess, it started moving so fast. In a circle. That means the spirit is trying to break the circle and get out. That's not good. During that time, I kept getting chills. Like, something cold kept washing over me. I didn't feel calm, like when you're supposed to feel when a good spirit comes. I felt scared. And I kept asking myself, after we ended the session, "Why would a good spirit scare us? They wouldn't do that." The only conclusion that came to my mind was the spirit was bad. But the animals were fine.
Anyways; after we ended the session, I broke down. I have NEVER cried that hard in front of my friends. I was scared. I felt helpless. I felt like, I had lost my uncle again. I couldn't stop crying. It was like, someone just told me I had lost my other uncle to suicide. I was heart broken. I felt abandoned, even  though Jess had her arms around me. I don't know how to explain it. That spirit who was trying to get out had scared me so badly, I started crying. I have never been that scared in my life. Not even when my mother tried to kill me. I feel ashamed for crying. It's weakness in my eyes but I've been crying a lot lately. I can't really help it. Something will remind me of him and I'll feel myself wanting to cry. But that night, holy shit. I have never cried like that before. I wanted to scream. Hit something. I wanted and want answers but I know I'll never get them. Even after I was scared like that, I had the strangest and strongest urge to make another board but with my blood this time. But I also knew it was a horrible idea and my gut told me no. So I decided against it and kept my mouth shut. I kept shaking for the rest of that night. I cannot express how terrified I was. I'll say it a thousand times. Those chills I got, I knew the weren't good. I don't know what else to say on the matter, So I'm going to stop.
Oh. I have good news, too. I'm not pregnant (:
Got my period yesterday. I have never been so glad to have gotten it, either. I can understand why it's called a "Monthly gift."

Peace
-A