STUPID, STUPID, STUPID!!!

HOW COULD I BE SO STUPID?!
I told him to put a condom on! He knows I'm not on birth control yet!
How could I be so fucking stupid and have unprotected sex when my period is going to start on the 1st or 2nd of August!?
I feel so fucking stupid. I knew what I was doing yet I said nothing. I mean, what the hell self?!
No words can describe how idiotic I feel. And what we did... Well, it when on for over an hour. So, now I have a higher chance of getting pregnant. I can't stop thinking about the fact that I might be pregnant. I mean, I might be over reacting, but you never know. Maybe I'm just being paranoid. Maybe.... I don't have any other excuses as to why I'm acting the way I am. If my period decides to be irregular this time, I'm going to fucking shoot someone! I will, quite literally, shoot someone. I will be fucking furious if my period decides to go, "Oh! I'm still irregular! So I'm going to scare the living daylights out of you for a month!"
Bitches will die if that happens. Bitches. Will. Die.  
Oh! Another thing!
I had the strongest urge to just kiss him, look him in the eyes and say, "I love you."
But I didn't. Good thing, too. Cause that would have scared the hell outta him.
And I'm not some weird girl who says that after a week of being with someone. I have liked this boy for the longest mother fucking time. And I honestly feel like I do love him. Maybe though. I'm a little skeptical. It might just be the hormones and the great sex.
And yes, he is ah-maz-ing  in bed ;)
I know I haven't slept with anyone besides him and K. But he is, by far, way better. And he is so gentle... But anyways. I'm going to pop a cap in some bitches ass if my period decides to fuck with me.

I don't have anything else to say...

Peace
-A